Last Essay

With this last essay I'm finding it harder to explain my thoughts. I'm realizing I still don't really understand how I feel about past events. I'm also toeing the line of what's mine to tell. Since the only three people will be reading it I don't feel as conflicted but still.... if I do share this with the subject someday, I don't want them to be angry about what I said. I'm trying to avoid letting this knowledge censor or alter what needs to be said, but it's hard. I want to give the truth but I don't want full disclosure. I want both and but I think complete truth only comes through full disclosure. I don't know. I just am realizing that this may be my hard writing. Because I don't want to write it.