Hard Writing

To be completely honest, I have been putting off writing my "hard" essay since the beginning of this class. I have avoided this subject as much as possible, scanning my mind, trying to come up with another topic that I could use as a cover and claim that this was my hard piece. But I cant. I've known since the minute we started talking about hard writing what that is for me. Do you ever bury something so deep that sometimes it really almost does disappear? You've worked so long and hard to supress it and lock it away that to risk opening it up, even just a little, is absolutely terrifying. I know what I need to write. I even think I know what style I want to write it in. But I don't want to start it. The thoughts and emotions this topic might bring out are going to be overwhelming. It will not be easy write about, hence the "hard" writing. Therefore, I will put this off as long as possible which is why I am blogging about it now and not starting my first draft.

SRH