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I don't have anything to say here.

I wish I could have ended this blog like that.

It's not that I am boring or out of material. I've had an eventful weekend. It's not that.

I just don't want to.

Have you ever felt so apathetic? I find it funny that taking out the "a" turns the word into pathetic.

Speaking of pathetic... (I knew if I just typed long enough something would come out)... I am feeling hopeless. My best friend from high school, Megan, just found out that her dad has lung cancer and has at best 1-2 years left.

Talk about having the rug ripped out from under you. My stomach just drops when I think about it. And he's not even my dad.

I feel helpless. Megan calls me at least three times a week in hysterics. With new, unanswerable questions. Who will walk her down the aisle if her dad dies? Who will she talk to when she's had a hard day? How can her mother and sister ever live without their rock, their father? How will she be strong enough?

I feel like a jerk when my head is asking, "How will I be strong enough to help her through this..." I mean, what do I say? How do you comfort someone who is potentially going to lose one of their best friends and most influential characters in two years.

And that's best case scenario.

Time seems so long to most. Suddenly it seems so short.

-emily